So I'm sitting here, waiting for my movie to load the rest of the way... and thinking of how to finish the 5x5 Rubik's cube, without cheating... and I just feel like typing all this down. Like I said, don't really know. I'm working a lot now, almost everyday of the week, for the same pay that I was making when I started a year ago. Never really asked for a raise, but I definitely would like one. Especially now that I'm trying to get ready to start school in the spring. Georgia Southern University, the whole place seems like such an awesome place to be. Either for school, parties, or just to reunite with old friends from high school, while making a lot of new ones. I can't wait to be back in school, I've missed it so much for the past year and a half. Life gets extremely boring without a sense of purpose or assignment. Even if those assignments are essays or quizzes, they still give you something to achieve right? I still have to find a hood and headlights for my car before mom will even listen to me seriously about school or a computer. Need the car fixed for school, because it gets a hell of a lot better gas mileage than my Cougar. I just procrastinate way too much with everything. I really do want to get it fixed, it's just that whenever I do have the time to do something about it, I have some other random urge to work on some other project or buy something I've wanted for quite some time but couldn't afford until now. Nothing too expensive, a game or movie here, a few nifty accessories of some sort there. And I want to work on getting a new laptop soon too. I'll need it more than anything for school, but I would so love it after using this piece of crap Dell for 7 or 8 years. It's kinda full! Let's see... what else can I bitch about just so I feel like it's not just sitting in my head stressing me out? Oh yea, Mom again. I need her help to get financing for the laptop, and her help to finish the FAFSA so I can afford school. I do realize that she doesn't get on my nerves half as much as I claim she does. Sometimes we can get along fine, but then there are the other times. But really, if she'd just listen to what I have to say half the time instead of just yelling for yelling's sake... we could avoid the yelling entirely and I wouldn't feel so much, just... ugh! towards her whenever she opens her mouth. And change topic again... I need a good relationship in my life. I've never REALLY had a meaningful one, that was also satisfying and known to the public at the same time. I have had relationships that are meaningful, but they were never in anyway official. To anyone. They're always behind someone's back, and guilt almost makes it not worth trying. Then there are all those mistaken relationships. Some were ok, yea. Nothing bad happened, but they weren't real enough. I just kinda drifted through them thinking I was happy with them. And I did care for the people, but... Yea I don't even know how to finish that thought. I just want to find somebody who gets me, likes my personality, crazy as I can be, and doesn't just want to be friends. I know I don't need to try to change myself for someone else's sake, but I would like to handle myself differently whenever I'm trying to initiate something with that person. I'm always so awkward, and somewhat childish about my feelings towards them. I won't come out and say that I like them in any normal sense, but I will tell them all the details about my life that they really don't want to know. Total turn off, but I'm hella good at it. But, I digress... sort of. I guess I just needed to rant for no real reason. This is stuff that's always on my mind that I never want to divulge to people. Well, except for the bitching and complaining about the things I don't have. Oh well, we all have our bad traits. And I'll just leave mine there for now. Cuz I realy doubt they're going anywhere for now.

Talk to, whoever, later,
Bye.
Levi Michael Fry